A shroud of silence. A single voice. An unstoppable force.
A string of five words that traveled through the air yet stood
still in time.
A clap of thunder. A wave of joy. A sense of responsibility
“MY STUDENTS ARE MY PROPERTY”
Spine-chilling isn’t it? To be personally owned by
the Lord God of all. Impeccable behavior, unwavering faith
and the strictest of discipline that these five words impose
upon the listener, yet a feeling of gratification that nothing
can possibly match and makes it all seem worthwhile.
can mere man-made words describe a feeling so divinely sublime?
Mere words! So inadequate and feeble. Eighteen years of
searching has proven futile, as will the remaining years
of my life to find a word or a phrase that interpret the
feeling of drowning in love. To be drowning and not gasping
for anything more in the world, an overwhelming sense of
“forever-ness”, no past, no present, no future.
Have not the scholars of the universe found this word? Will
anyone ever find it? Over time I have learnt to believe
that this word must exist somewhere within the vastness
of love. This one word must echo endlessly, yet remain unheard,
and that in the final breath of life is this word of eternal
bliss whispered ever so softly into our ears, for that is
when the thoughts cease, and the heart beat stops and the
realization of this omnipotent word is evident.
The journey never ends, yet I shall undertake it, just because
Claiming me as your own is a debt that cannot be humanly
repaid. But all that I shall do, shall be in your name. Yet,
as fortunate and blessed as I may seem, I cannot cease to
ask you for strength and faith to bravely climb life’s
hill. To be Yours is a responsibility awarded to the noblest
of beings, and to know that I qualify into your regiment is
reason enough to believe that You shall grant me the equanimity
appropriate of a Sai Soldier.
Lead me on Master, not to fight the war, but to end it. Hold
my hands and channel my energies to where they are dwindling.
Close my eyes and teach me to look deep beyond the surface.
Give me the power to rest while in motion.
As I read these words again and again, I feel the atmosphere
thicken and time curdles to a stop. I’ve been chosen
to play a part. The realization is profound. My mind is racing
to find THAT word, and there You stand, before my minds eye
telling me to wait, I shall find what I am looking for in
time, but until then, I must wait, wait, wait, wait, wait
And I will wait, JUST BECAUSE OF YOU.