It would be better without – but this is not possible.  So let us try with those terms that are familiar to us. LOVE: Love is one of the ‘feelings’ and understandings which all people comprehend, appreciate, accept and recognize.

  A dream was troubling me over the last years. With little differences it was every time quite the same. The tale was going on like this: I met a young lady, and we two knew that we belonged together. In addition, the Love between us was very deep and strong. It was a sweet, pure and free Love. After a short time, I awoke. I felt upset and I felt a strong ‘pain’ of separation. It hurt even in my heart. I still didn’t know her name and I didn’t know who she really was. The worst thing was that I was ashamed of having such dreams, with my dear wife sleeping near me. I told her my dreams, but she laughed saying: “Oh Bangaru, don’t worry, it’s only a dream!” I realized that she wasn’t touched seriously by my trouble.

The dreams continued. On one hand not unpleasant, on the other hand the question began me to preoccupy.

As I love writing, I began to write: “I am partly shocked; partly does this Love incite me. This Love is activating me, makes me happy and is enchanting me. Can I be rescued at all? Is it not more than a flirt or a vague amorousness? After all I’m neither wild about her nor do I feel silly ideas in my head. Anyway, I feel that these incidents mean to be far more than simple projections of my mind, or the projections of an ageing man. The Love is real. It hurts after awaking; therefore it must be quite real…”

In my meditations I brought this dilemma to Baba: “Baba, I never, as far as I remember, released the holding on You! Please, help me on this matter.”

The answer did not wait for long. “Your Love is Me! I am you, I am the Lover, I am the Loved, I am Love. You know!”

I realized without delay. There is only Love in the world. Love sustains the world and the world is Love. My deep being is Love, is prema, is He. I am ‘sat-cit-ânanda’. This Love is dwelling in me, and it is awake and true. I realized that my mind worked out all my deep feelings into a projection familiar to it. My brain built his own construction on Love: knowing, as far as I am concerned, that for a man ‘Love’ has somehow to do with woman; it projected my Love on a young Lady in my dream. An exact configuration and enacting on this subject that fits. Only Love makes men happy. And I’m happy, full conscious to be happy! But! Too much mind, too much brainwork on all this matter! Being aware and knowing the connections, is not enough. One has to have the full experience, the full consciousness of his part in the whole drama of life and his own being. The full awareness of being a part in and of the whole! Feeling with the heart, not knowing with the mind! “With the power of mind you can never reach Me”, said Sai Baba. I have to forget my ‘mind’ and have to live only in that light and free, unbounded and liberated stage of Love.

As time passes, it is a must for me to continue, stronger than ever, more intensive than ever:
“Holding on to Him”,

To Him, who is Love pure, who is our inner being, our whole being. Holding on to Him, means, being aware to be One with Him, One with Love, being Him, One with all people, embracing the whole world.

We have to realize not only this statement, but the Reality who He, our beloved Bhagavan Sathya Sai Baba really is. He is our very Being, our only sustenance, our only anchor. Or how Smt. Vijayamma designates it: “Other than You Refuge there is none” Sai Ram, Sai Ram - Samastâh loka sukhino bhavantu!