From the moment of existence 
You tended to me as a Mother 
Watching Her child take 
Those first steps 
As the veil of ignorance 
Blinded me and made my
Journey as slippery way
But I was Holding onto Him

Every time I faltered 
You reached out and
Stopped me from falling 
Tightened the grip 
I felt the Guidance of 
Your Loving Hand
As Every step I took
I was Holding onto Him

As darkness prevailed 
My vision clouded 
I called out.."Sai 
Mother where are you?"
In the turmoil and trial
As I felt distance
When I thought All was lost
"I am here My child" 
I heard You say
I then knew again 
I was Holding onto Him 

Your flute I am
As you blew your breath
My heart searched
For the glimpse 
Of my Lord Krishna
Your stealing of hearts
Of the Gopis and All
My heart Dear Lord
Danced with your name 
I was Holding onto Him 

When the day came
That I could have Your Darshan
To Puttaparthi we came
Hearts Eager to see
The Lord walking the earth
My Swami finally in Whitefield 
You will stand before me
Then suddenly through 
A window I saw You
My soul cried eyes followed 
As you walked into the hall
My heart came a sound 
I was Holding onto Him 

For years to Abode of Peace
We came Hearts Eager to see 
The Lord my Swami 
Every moment held dear
And as veil started to lift
I felt you were always near
A yearning that was there
Was now growing stronger 
With you I wanted to stay
Please Swami let me
Each time I would say
With heavy heart 
I would go till next time 
I would tell myself 
I was Holding onto Him 

Then came one day
A news that took
My breath away 
You left Your physical form 
"Swami" my heart cried 
My Lord where are you? 
Will I not now see you 
My eyes lamented 
My world was falling apart 
Take me with you 
Each step so difficult 
Even still I heard your voice 
Soothing me You said,
"Keep walking My child 
I am with You always.."
Once again you reminded 
I was Holding onto Him 

Give me the Inner View
I am feeling lost Oh Lord
Each breath painful 
Flood of tear held back
Then I came back 
As I lay my head 
At your Lotus Feet
At the Sannidhi
I could back no longer 
Tears flowed as a river
My heart searched 
For You my Lord Sai
"I am here My child"
Again I heard You say 
I was Holding onto Him 

I love You Dear Lord as Sai 
But I yearned to know 
Of Your form as Lord Shiva
Then you showed me
As my eyes earned to see
As My Soul in My Heart 
You are with me
My Swami my Guru Mahadev
With bounds of Joy
Once again my heart danced 
My Lord is with me it sang
I was Holding onto Him 

Never far now You are 
But have always been near
The veil was lifting Mother Sai
Drawing me closer to you
With renewed strength 
I was walking now 
The yearning stronger 
To be One with you forever 
Take me with you my Lord 
But you know I was not ready 
"Ask, Who am I? You taught" 
Please teach me Dear Lord
"Come My child", You said
On a journey I went 
With You I walked 
To know Thy Self
Each step I took 
I was Holding onto Him 

"Let go, let go of attachments 
And worldly desires..
Love All Serve All
Service to man is Service to God
You showed me You are in All
Be careful my child 
The six enemies of man..
You warned
Keep walking as a Lion,
I am with You at every step ", 
You called when slip I may
I was Holding onto Him 

Chains you broke 
That held me bound 
Now able to fly
As my heart felt free
Closer I came to know 
The Truth that 
He is the Doer
The One that is walking 
Through this journey 
No longer the "I" but We
And the Love grew
As devotion for Thee
The Oneness I felt
Then came reality 
It is He It is He It is He 
With Peace flowing 
Set me free set me free
My Lord walking with Thee
As I cried heart yearning 
I was Holding onto Him 

The Cosmic Dance of Life
As Lord Shiva & Mother Shakti 
"Life is a Game 
Play it", You said 
Come play with Me
Each test will strengthen 
As the Iron is moulded 
Then when it became 
So unbearable You showed 
That You were right here 
With clouded eyes 
I could not see 
You are always near 
Then I knew again 
I was Holding onto Him 

Thank you Dear Lord 
For opening my eyes 
I wait for the day
When the last breath 
I will take to take me home
My Mahadev will come 
For now I wait 
I pacify My heart 
With the thought 
I am I For my Soul sings
I am Holding onto Him 

"I separated Myself from Myself 
So that I may Love Myself"
Then to know the Truth 
My breath is Thee
I can see because 
The One that sees is Thee
The One that Loves is Thee
My All is Thee
This journey you taught
"You only travel from I to I"
As the veil lifted 
The One that walked 
Was Thyself to Thee
The One that said All along
I am Holding onto Him

Then one day 
When the last day will come 
The journey will end
Then I will be One
With you my Lord 
And forever say 
I am Holding onto Him